When truth is lying there.. so bare and open.. it doesn't feel good when I realised you are still not/not willing saying the truth.. well, at least, I can say that I'm not 'hurt' by the things you've said or done anymore.. which I assume it's good.. because it will mean that you are really ain't that important in my life anymore..
I just don't understand, if you still want to remain as friends, then the least we could do is tell the min truth? hmm.. if not, otherwise, it gets me thinking, is this.. is what you are telling me, or who you are etc etc even true? And it makes me not wanna open to you too..
Nonetheless.. it's really not that important anymore............
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/27/2011 01:04:00 AM
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
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DayS of XY's LIFE.
1/18/2011 12:14:00 AM
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Opening up this blog after sometime.. initially i was afraid what if someone reads all my 'personal & true' feelings.. how? how m i gng to face the world? *ok, enuff of self-tug war* But then now, everything's kinda fine.. I've made the darest move in end 2010, being transparent as much as possible and baring every inch of my inner emotions to someone I tot I will never have.. Is it good or bad? Hmmz.. I really don't know, but at least like what my 7-sister says, 'rather say more than few years down, regretting not saying at all..' I will try to live by this motto, if applicable.. and as much as possible not looking back and move on from there..
Hmmmz.. year is coming to an end soon, in a nutshell, 2010 has been.. er.. heart wrecking for me and life-changing? haha.. 1) I've 'loved', at least I tot I did, I've been hurt upside down, nothing can describe that agony and emo times that I've to go through.. 2) Friendship (some) were rebuilt.. in a way or another.. 3) Had a new job.. 4) Went to Japan and Vietnam (2 new places that I've never been to before).. and before my seat is warmed, I've already planned 3 places to go next year =) Another jet-setting time.. 5) My dad had problems in his legs, and had to use a walking stick now.. 6) Had my craziest hair-cut which looks like a crazy rocker.. (this is soo going to be the last time, I've warned that stylist of mine) 7) became braver when I tot I wouldn't have able to come out of it 8) Going back to the Lord, or at least I'm trying, perhaps that's the greatest healing power for me =) Home is the best, ain't it?
I know I'm special, and that special someone will accept me for who I am.. at least I noe He has planned a future for me and that's for me to prosper... I'm gng to hold that so tightly till it comes to pass..
I don't know when's my next post.. Till then, adios 2010 and a special welcome to 2011!!
Signing off, Xiuyi
DayS of XY's LIFE.
12/30/2010 04:56:00 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Osaka..here i come!!
it's finally here.. 2 more days.. which minus off my workday.. strictly speaking.. im only left with 1 day to prepare..
itinenery left 3/4 not done.. bag not packed.. im sooo... bwk.. hahah..
1 week away from s'pore.. 1 week away from memories that seems to stay so fresh and recent.. i'm happy to declare that i've moved on.. at least when i look back now, im 1 inch away from the past.. =)
perhaps this is best for us. at least for me.....
can't wait to breathe the air of Japan!!
DayS of XY's LIFE.
10/17/2010 01:01:00 PM
Saturday, October 02, 2010
Today is the day where I will learn to move on, by myself..
Even as friends, there's no point in putting efforts? Cos I feel that I'm the only one doing all the initiatives.
Perhaps what you need is for me to open my hands and stop holding you back.. I will from now on.. (xiuyi, stop holding yourself back too ><)
I should be happy eh? New Job, nice boss and colleagues, new challenges etc.. A group of friends who love and support me.. what more can I ask for?
This is only my 1st week into the new role. So far, I've no complaints.. It's more like navigating through the system, slowly taking over things that my Boss wants me to do. Claire is a very supportive boss. You can feel it from the way she speaks to me or to the rest of the colleagues. Always so receptive to what you've to say. And you will know it's not the listen and forget kind of thing, which happens a lot in my previous place :s
She's concerned about the struggles, challenges or opinions that you have.. and she's interested in being involved in the future that you want to carve in this org. She's great, humourous, capable (at age 34, she's a senior HR Business partner, next deputy in charge to my Head of HR, Asia), loves life and just being her :D
And though I come with no experience in analytical work, it didn't stop her in hiring me..she believes that with great attitude, all the rest can be picked up along the way.. Thanks C! I hope I can perform in this role the way you want me to..
Alright, till then, 2 more weeks to my Jpn trip, and seriously, I'm feeling ok.. Neutral about it.. haa..
DayS of XY's LIFE.
10/02/2010 12:08:00 PM
Friday, September 17, 2010
it hurts when i realised it no longer excites you to realise my presence..
perhaps you are really taking it for granted that im gng to be here..
i always can't bear to walk away, no matter what happen.. *in this situation, i hate this perserverence character of mine*
gd bye my 'friend'.. cos i realised it might be easier for me if i just disappear away.. maybe you dun care.. maybe you will meet someone new, like how you did 10mth ago..
my heart really hurts when i tink of that.. :(
ye.. it sounds dumb..
a week away.. till my next journey...
DayS of XY's LIFE.
9/17/2010 11:52:00 PM
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Simple things in life make me happy.. Really :)
Loves
Stoning, good food, movies, shopping, hanging out with friends
Hates
No food, neverending work, aimless life..
Wishlist
A new MP3 **Mine can't dl songs anymore :(
Another trip to Taiwan/Hongkong
BKK/ Australia
Japan/ Korea/ Europe
